Yep I'm in a really bad mood! I'm sick of everything and everyone! Word of advice to EVERYONE out there. You know that saying "Treat others as you wish to be treated." I'm here to tell you it's total crap!! Because I discovered no matter how nice I am to people, no matter how many favors people ask of me, weather they're big or little I always do it, because I like to think when I need it they'll always be there for me. Yeah, hah, they never are!!!!!!! They'll never repay those favors because it's too much effort, they can't be bothered, they don't want to, it's disturbing what they want to do. Well you know what, I've thought that many times, BUT I STILL HELP THEM!!!!!! And they'll always treat you like absolute shit as long as they're happy. See this is something I've only just realised, they're feelings are all that matter. Who cares if your depression has peaked again, your having major family issues, not sure if you want to go out on the family holiday because you know your going to cop it non stop from 3 people who have absolutly no reason why they should hate you, they just do bacause it's easier to hate someone than to try and like them. No these issues don't matter because your mate's problems are far worse, she's not sure weather her bf loves her!!! Oh the tradjety of it!!!!
Plus I don't think anyone really realises how sick I am. I swear they think I simply have a cold with a fancy name. Hah! Yeah that's why I got sent home from Tocal early, why I can't stand up and walk around for very long, I can't have a bath or shower without someone in the house with the door unlocked coz there's a chance I'll pass out from the steam, I've lost nearly 6kg already and I'm still sick so I'm bound to lose more and I was clearly adviced I shouldn't coz it'll take longer for me to get better, the whites of my eyes started turning yellow because my liver is that fucked. Yeah that's healthy isn't it? The levels of my liver or whatever you call it were originally 5 times over what they should be!! The doctor was amazed I was still walking. I'm seriously a pin cushion I'm having so many blood tests, and each one they want to lay me down in a bed to do coz they're so sure I'm going to faint coz I'm so weak. But again that's nothing because another friend had an arguement with a friend at school and that takes priority.
Yeah I know I'm bitching a lot, I just need to get it off my chest